Irony. Trust.
Similarity? Theyre both present in our miserable lives.
Difference? The former seems to be present many times more than the latter. Sadly.
Why? God knows. Shrouded in mystery, the latter is almost non-existent. Which stupid little tattletale let the cat out of the bag? Trust me, I dont know half as much as YOU people out there. Tsk.
Just one hour ago I discovered with horror that two people have found out about something they shouldnt have found out. Everyone knows that!! [quoted from one party] Ok, so that statement implies that -everyone- knows about that thing. Not just two people. But...EVERYONE?? Like seriously, who knows how many people -everyone- could possibly refer to. So, to be pessimistic (I wanted to include a particular phrase but a certain Miss Ong decided that I was plagiarising someone. Fine. *rolls eyes*), I shall take it that the whole GEP population of HellHouse knows about this matter. And Ill be damned. ONE HUNDRED AND ONE PERCENT.
By the way those two people have refused to say where/who they heard it from. Are they just out to aggravate me or what?? Whats the point of letting me know you heard something if you dont describe the source? Then how am I supposed to know that that the thing you heard is true?? Tsk.
To think that Ms Congeniality kept staring at me in the com lab on Tuesday. I couldnt make out the look on her face though; it was sorta blank. Ok maybe Im just not cut out to read every single facial expression yet, but hey, Im workin on it! I shouldve known she was staring at me because she had heard something (most prob. untrue) about me. Like, she wouldnt give a shit otherwise. Nobody else would for a slug like me. Shouldve thought about it there and then since I noticed her staring (yes, I noticed, but I shrugged it off and went on with my VB programming). Talk about stupidity :s
Im freaked out. I really am. What do they actually know? How much?? How did they find out??? If this spreads (it most prob. would) I. Am. So. History. Read about me in Freaks and Monsters 2004.
But then again Ill be leaving NYPS in TWO weeks. Wont have to suffer the gimcrack gossip of gormless gits if it spreads. Hey. Nice alliteration.
BUT!! Can I tolerate TWO weeks of gossip?? Do I want my fellow GEPers to remember as "the girl who got involved in ____" ??? Sigh.
When can I stop contradicting myself?!?!
Leen tried to force a smile @... 11:06 PM
